Saturday, 06 March 2010

  • i don't know where to go from here.

    Jacob is really horrible to me. Yet he's the only thing I have anymore. He made me give up my friends, so he's my only friend. He made me give up my family, now he's my family. I have given up everything I once cared about, for someone who had no problem sleeping with another girl. I lost my life, for someone who hits me. I love him, and I honestly don't know why. He's really mean to me. I guess originally i thought he would change, but I'm pretty sure that's not a possiblity anymore. I just don't want to waste my life with someone who treats me like dirt. I don't know why I feel guilty for writing this, is nothing but the truth. I don't know why I'm worried about hurting him, he doesn't mind hurting me. I just don't know where to go from here. I feel so alone.

Sunday, 20 December 2009

Friday, 11 December 2009

  • somethings up.

    Idk I kinda feel like something is up. So I busted Jacob on the applebees thing as a mentioned earlier and instead of just telling me to get over it he acted sorry. Really sorry. like uncharacteristically sorry. He told me how bad he felt and if I would just forgive him he would never talk to her or hang out with her again. I just have a really bad feeling that I almost caught him in a bigger lie and he's willing to bend over backwards to not get caught now. He's willing to completely stop talking to her to keep me from finding out.

  • go figure.

    so guess what I found in Jacob's wallet? a recipt from applebees. Why is that important you might ask? Because The recipt is from December 2, when he took Amanda ALONE to applebees and bought her dinner while I was at work. I know this because the recipt had a fajita wrap on it, which is what she eats when she goes there( I know because we all went to applebees as a group about a month ago and she talked about it). At first he tried to lie to me and tell me it was him, her, and other people from work, but when his story started falling apart I finally got him to admit it was just him and her. I just found out about this yesterday over a week after it happened. He had been lying about it for over a week and had no intentions to tell me. So yet again another lie. I have no idea what they do when their alone. It honestly probably wouldnt surprise me if I found out they were sleeping together. That's sad, but it's the truth. I don't know what to believe from him anymore. I just want Amanda to go ahead and leave. Go to Japan with her husband and get out of my life.

Tuesday, 08 December 2009

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